No more Monday Blues~~~ yeah! cuz i dun have to work today suddenly felt so stressfree...dunno why...

Recalling back my weekend it was the worst weekend i had spent in my entire life... not only did i have to work on both days but was being screwed up on both days as well ! not tt i dun like work but ya noe the feeling of getting screwed up when something goes wrong ya???

My Saturday was being called in to do videofilming for one small event due to lack of ppl doing it... so i had to force myself to agree and help out... its my sat ya noe... but first thing in morn i was terribly late..was supposed to report at 9 am.. but i only left house at 8.30 and the journey takes almost 45 mins... afraid of getting the heated argument again... i forced myself to took a cab which i had not even enough to last the entire journey... so i told the uncle to alight me at yishun first i supposed i shld hav enough... but looking at the speed tt he is driving! at snail's pace!~~~ i was damn pissed off...already told him i was in a hurry... he still had the mood to joke and talk w me..i had to suppress my anger and force a smile back then..in the end i decided i wont have time to travel frm yishun to amk by train so i told uncle to drive me straight to amk station so i can press money frm the atm der if i exceeded the fee...he was kinda doubtful tt time on whther i had enuff money and offered to drop me at yio chu kang instead but i still insisted... eventually when we reached amk station i only exceeded by a buck~~~ thinking tt he wont mind i tried to cham siong w him asking him to just accept it.. but nevertheless he was such a hypocrite!!! saying no money y learn frm others to take cab only waste ppl's time!!! ppl listen up this is TIBS TAXI !!! cant he understand for a while as if ppl want to go all out to cheat him ah.. i already spent my weekend money on all his cab fare and left w ten cents man.. never had i felt so penniless in my entire life... just like bankruptcy~~~

However i still reach office as late by only 5 mins... only to let my two colleagues wait outside for me as i'm the only one holding the keys... 10 mins later this guy, a driver came in to help out for the day's events...i had forgotten to inform him we dun need a driver last min... which led to a communication breakdown... my boss found out and flared up... saying i was irresponsible... and he wont want another extra manpower to increase the cost... i had to take out one of my manpower to fit him in for other duties as it's not to good to let him return just like tt.... was scolded so damn badly... till i admitted i cried.. but nt cuz i did something wrong but cuz of the insults and the vulgars i get most of the time... thou he dun want me to go shooting then..eventually he still asked me to go dwn....

My Saturday just went passed like that... i had no mood to go out...since then everytime i think about this my eyes go red...no idea why...its been so long since my heart felt really pain in the bottom..till i cant swallow my own saliva....

My Sunday needless to say...

Its time i think i shld just take a break and pack up for a few days.... maybe to somewhere far i wont noe.. at least a place that wont remind me of my past...have a kit kat yeah~~~

Its now almost 3 am Monday ler.. just came back frm work at york ard 12 plus... whole hands are still shivering till nw due to too much carrying of heavy utensils.. but anyway i like my job der.. have been der for 2 plus years ler.. esp my manager steven, a very understanding person.. all the aunties der..the easy going ppl..the cosy enviroment... i simply love it!

simply, my day is so packed up today..morn had to go Changi Naval Base open house mainly to do shooting for my boss and to bring my bro out to widen his knowledge.. intially wanted to go alone.. but thinking its also a gd chance to go out w my family and bring my bro out...so i decided to take a risk by asking my dad along... indeed i kinda regretted abit cuz tt morn i finally experienced wad it was like to be sandwiched betn two impatient and kinda hot tempered persons...my plan to start off e day obviously didnt work, i asked dad to fetch us to jurong point and drop me der to fetch the camera frm my boss.. which i didnt tell my dad it was my boss at all... eventually my boss was late for fifteen mins.. and my dad who was well known to be impatient for even five mins.. of cuz was pissed off when he waited 20 mins for me! my mood was already destroyed first thing in the morn.. but i was set on making things go smoothly according to my plan and go ahead w the trip.. i had a way my dad after all... we had been living under the same roof for so many yrs ler.. just a bit of coaxing and a bit of teasing does the trick man.. hee... i love the way to see both my parents smile w my jokes... i just feel its right to do so..

The trip to changi base was not too bad but not too gd after all..der were lots and dozens of people and entertainment.. and also showcases of e most common and resourceful equipments and ships really was an eye opener...we even went dwn to a real mssile ship and experienced the situation inside this ship which was explained to us by a sergeant..if we had more time we might have even went up to view more ships.. i had even pulled my dad to join in the banana ride and jet skiing w me.. but unfortunatly the queue was too long and my mum had to return to work so it was really my pity!!! Morever due to the humid weather my mum was already kinda frustrated.. so really hard to make them concentrate in the activities w more time... imagine i had to run 400m behind them taking pictures while they were brisk walking all the way thru out the whole carnival making me chase so terribly behind them.. wad to do... still had to get some pictures to submit ma....

Following on we decided to visit my aunt who just had an operation and i had to leave after tt to meet my boss to pass his camera back to him... decided to pass to him before i leave for work at york... however when i reached der he was nt even der... already msged him long time ago to inform him...even waited for 15 mins for him... but he nv replied me after all... came to think tt he was still sleeping and might have overslept so i decided to left in a hurry to york which i was already v late for work...was damn pissed off at the time..imagine someone had to sacrifice a Sunday to do things for you and u had to do this...thou it might nt be on purpose but this is more to a responsibilty...eventually i was really late for york but lucky i walked so swift tt my legs were totally cramped only to be late by 15mins... and steven and the security guard were so nice to pretend knowing i log late by ten mins cuz after 15 ins by rule shld start deducting my pay ler... was really touched... dunno shld call lucky anot... hee..

But anyway ppl...this is my sunday diary ler... i shld be tuning in nw my body cant take it ler... ; )

today...finally started my first entry~~~well had a damn tired day... in fact to say i dozed off on the train back home which i slept till so unruly till i dun even gave a hoot abt it ler...

was scolded first thing in the morn when got to work..simply becuz i messed up my co's clients database since feb till now... which my boss was not happy since and kept bringing this issue out...for god's sake... haven i been trying my best to turn thing's back to normal???

thinking back.. learnt a lot and made a lot of bloody stupid mistakes since then..yaya everything dunno must ask must ask.... dun be too over confident and snobbish ma...." When i was in 1992, where were you?? Still in Primary 2 when i got my first letter of appreciation??!!??" yaya...i know i know.... ya had all sorts of motives like stealing info, be spy from other company,deleting files,and messing up whole operations right??? alright...i admit it..

this boss of mine i must say really had a bad temper.. but compared to last time had dropped by almost 50% le.... but uh hmmm..... still as bad....after work still can say a frend able to hang out w if possible... but at work his face damn serious... cannot even step on his toes not even his nails...i noe u guys have been asking me to quit.. and i not so idiot to be so blur till i dunno he using me!?! ..really wanted to quit at the bottom of my heart... at times under his scolding till i cried thousands a time really had the urge to shout at him saying i dun give a damn on this job tt has no prospects... and considering the miserly pay which i cant survive a month... really i dunno why i still push myself to stay and wei qu myself when i have problems surviving...

i really had lots of plans in future after this job..was intending to join Qantas... dancing classes..Smu course...and of course to do something abt my unkept hair!... but seriously to say not tt i gave up but partly due to this current job it has been holding me up...took up most of my days like almost six days... imagine everyday getting so demoralised till where u got the mood to concentrate on oth stuff???!!! wad to do pity ppl ma.... but dun worry my frends i wont stay der for long ...going off soon.... was quite glad to say thou things are not moving at the pace i want... i am still holding on tight to my pursues.. and of course not giving up man!

missed the days went out last week w hermann and gang to Angels' thou was already walking like crab tt night haha...but hey was still quite sobber... i'm still toking some sense! all because of tt harvey norman lor... made me drank tt Waterfall.. made me had rashes for one entire week! knew i was allergic in the first place dahz... but anyway thanks to him i understand his efforts for doing so..and tt drink was really not cheap man.. so...feel quite bad lor...

hm...yar went for smu briefing not long ago..was quite disappointed didnt get into my course but rather a course i absolutely never consider of...still thinking lor..so might give up tt... was quite surprised to saw yuan kai (ex jc mate) der...thou i think he nv saw me larz... always thought he had high ambitions thou..had entered nus already but dunno lar.. also not quite close to him... hm...besides tt even saw dickson(bernard's frend) too.... such a coincidence... among the hundreds of ppl he chose the same course and the same queue as me! only to find out tt he was queueing behind me.. hm.. a bit weird ha... but not bad lar at least got someone i noe der.... really nice to bang into him back der mann...

met celine yest(sunday) at west mall to met up w her special someone... said at first for dinner larz.... but last min a pot of Nasi Bryani arrived at my home so no choice lor had to eat tt and leave her eating alone with us watching her globbing her food instead hee.... was really happy to receive her call the night b4 telling me some good news..ha unexpected for me at least....but really just felt a stone just sank into my heart when i learnt tt both of them were together... finally one has decided.. and one has decided to fight for it... ha... but they all hor a bit lame lar.. duuno shld i call tt ... but really lor.... so big already still play hide and seek when they know each other like so damn inside out onez... haiz.. but anyways its different now at least hee...

k..i suppose till then i wil stop here..tired lerz...to my pals out der if wanna know more abt my current life feel free to log in anytime i ll try my best to update this site as frequently as poss yarz... till then take carex my folks....nitez!